AT LAST

Run for the hills, the dam's busted!

The Muse finally kicked in. Being on vacation helped a bit,
along with doing some editing on some old stories I posted to the
Cam's list for Halloween. Guess it primed my pump. I've gotten
two The Wyld stories and a two part stand alone on one of my
secondary characters. I've done some stuff for my genealogy
blog as well so it's been a fairly productive three days.

Now I hope I can keep it up, and that maybe there'll be other
stories posted besides mine to the list.

RAINY FRIDAY

I’m still out here.

I’m still in that rut. Somebody who reads this blog suggested
yesterday that I take a break and read a book, and I had to grin
to myself. I read all the time. I’ve been rereading some of my old
favorites in the hopes something will jumpstart my imagination
again but so far no luck.


Despite what it might appear from recent entries, I don’t walk
around all day in a perpetual funk. You can’t work retail if you
are. You put on a smile, get your game face on, go out there and
be a customer service soldier. It’s when I get home here to my
hobbit hole by myself that I sit here and wonder why I feel the
way I have lately.


Of course I could say it’s partly because of how we lost Diana.
I’m pretty sure she’d “pfft” me for that one. Even though she was
ten years younger than me, she was closest to my age out of my
closest online friends and damn, I still miss those late night talks
about anything and everything. But even before her passing there
were times over the years when I’d get into this mood and I’d stay
offline for a few days until I snapped out of it rather than to mope
about online and be a wet blanket.


I don’t know what it is. I just don’t. Maybe it is middle age blahs?
Or at this point, middle aged approaching senior citizen blahs?

TURNING MY WHEELS

I don't know what is my problem lately.

I've been spinning my wheels. I go to work everyday and
just try to get through the day without having to deal with
BM.

I come home at night and there's no desire to log online either
for rp or genealogy. I eat dinner, fall asleep, wake up,
check in on the channel more out of a sense of duty than in
anticipation of any roleplay.

One or two days a week I'll hack out something for the
genealogy blog. Occasionally I turn out a decent post
but most of it feels forced to me.

Then I go to bed, sleep, get up the next morning and
repeat.

There's no spark.

I don't know why.

A PURELY OBLIGATORY POST

Yeah, I'm still here.

Although it's not been a very productive stretch of time. I've done some
posts on the genealogy blog but my writing and rp just have sucked.
Nights like tonight I'd rather be in bed and I fight it because even if
there's nothing going on in the channel I feel it's important I be there.

At least I've taken some steps to ensure the channel hopefully
continues should the time come that I am not there.

Anyway. That's about it for now.